Board Thread:Survivor: Wikia - Season 2/@comment-4723941-20130227114034/@comment-5039272-20130227171129

Well i want to say that i always expressed my feelings, because that's part of my personality. i just didn't want to stay invisible like zion and gerda and really know why it's me. well i didn't want to insult you or something and i am really sorry for how i behaved. but something in your speech is a little exaggerated. i was just sad that we have to vote off of of the people who we are in alliance a long time and we can't vote off person who we really wanted out and who was threating me every time and tried to vote my off every time. (Well, you voted for me 9 times and i for you only twice). and i tried to deal with it, the reason how i behaved like that is really that i show my feelings every time and it was probably a mistake because it's really better to keep it inside you sometimes. but thats not changing how active i played this game

1) well, it was summer who first said something about having a cross-tribal alliance from what i remember, and i really believed it. i was on crossroads if go with my original tribe (because our alliance wasn't that tight because it was beggining of the game) so i really thought we can cooperate. i really didn't lie to anybody in that time, i just wanted to have the  upper hands and make me have the most options. Making alliance with brian was the same thing, i just tried to be nice to him and it was him who offered me an alliance, because he felt on the outcasts because of being inactive in the beggining and everybody was hard on him and i knew he should flip if he gets to the merge.i just wanted to catch every oppurtunity and don't let nothing be.

2) well, i am sorry, but i didn't get that furious and i didn't shout at you (sorry if Caps lock sometimes offended you, i didn't realize  that it's sign for shouting) I was just very confused and i wasn't furious about a single vote, i just wanted to know why it's me every time because i just thought i am friend with everybody and i didn't realize how dangerous and threat I am  for other people and that was reason why i got angry sometimes, because your answer was always the same. And i couldn't believe it, because i never haven't high self-confidence from my life and i never expected that i will ever make this.

(well, i really feel this speech to me is really in contrary with what you were saying to me in the game and i hope we will get chance normally talk about it.)\

3) well, answer is in my answer on your 2nd question. i just never believed i could ever make this and be threat for somebody, that's why i was always searching something wrong, because it got easy and i didn't believe i can make it to the end, because of people targetting me every time and getting betrayed by 2 friends and allies. so i was negative. Now i am really proud of myself and on my playing and on that i really did make it. I know i was negative, and i found out thats part of me as well.

I really never said directly: "Sole cheated"!!. I didnt. i am confessing we were only talking about how low score we got and you got really big because we didn't know whats the average score in that game, because i didn't know that game. But i never said i am confident you cheated,  directly and on 100% percent, no i honestly didn't, because i knew how good you are in these games. I dont know if that was strategy of some people to turn it into Alex said that, because almost everybody wanted me out in some point so i really didn't mind.

4) i am not saying gerda and zion are not deserving, but i just played this game the most hardest. I was the most in danger every time, they weren't and i felt they sometimes forgot to even play it for the social aspect of this and strategical sometimes, that's reason why people voted for me the most, i was threat for him and gerda and zion weren't. with that big target, i was able to make it to Day 39 and not that easy with receiving no or few votes like them. So i am proud of myself on on this whole alliance created by me in the start of the game...

I honestly think you are the only player who nobody can beat in the final 3, i couldn't, 1) because you were real "survivor" you didn't have to backstabb anybody and 2)you were the friend with everybody too, or they at least thought you are 3)and on the jury were 4 manu members who were ready to vote for you and i always had seen david34 being close to you. and bitterness of some people trying to avoid voting for popoki.

If you had won immunity, i honestly felt i would be out, because you would already vote for me and either zion or gerda should vote for me to get further, because they haven't other choice and they knew i will get vote from you sole. But if this wouldn't happen, i would probably want to vote off the person who is not that big threat, because i didnt want to have it easier (even despite knowing you will already  beat me, but i didn't want to stop fighting in F4, i tried hard in that challenge too)

Who is the least deserving to be on F3? it would be probably the person who played this game the least and took it seriously the least, because if i confirm playing this game or other ORG, i won't never stop playing it. thats the source of success, even not being best at challenges.