Board Thread:Survivor Wiki Online Game Board/@comment-26888451-20150807031737/@comment-10242823-20150808015330

Alright, I don't know what you qualify as an essay. So let's just do this as a basic thing.

This game has had a lot of ups and a lot of downs. I'm here now and my job is to convince you why I should win. So I've had difficulties writing this. Normally when I make the Finals I write why I should win, not why the other should lose. So this is not something new for me but it's just something I'm not used to. I think we can just generally go down the line here. I'm just going to go and compare myself to Augusto in the social, physical, and strategic game.

Everyone here agrees I sucked at the friendly aspect of the game. Though you know a lot of the social aspect isn't just talking to people. It also involves some sort of self-awareness and knowing your strengths and weaknesses. I'm an ornery person. Things make me mad easily and normally I hide it well but it was just a tad more difficult this time around. My personality gets me in trouble but I have the self awareness to know it's going to. I can't change that about myself. It's just something that's there and I have to deal with it. The best way for me to go about this game knowing my personality was going to get me in trouble was to just let it. I never pissed anyone off directly, it was just the vibe I gave along with the other Arawak members talking about me.

I had things worth being a jackass over. I helped Arawak win that first challenge because I made people aware that what were were doing was stupid when no one else was going to. It's a brutish way to go about it but I had to do it. I'm more aware than Augusto is about how I'm perceived. I know I can be standoffish and I use that in the game. However Augusto seems to just have this false sense that he's made a lot of moves that weren't actually his. You mentioned them in your jury speech so I don't have to. Was Augusto kinder to people? Yes. Was I terrible to everyone? No, I was never downright rude. I was just generally irritable. I never hated anyone, I just got mad for short bursts. Calling me a villain is an exaggeration. I'm an idiot savant; my personality gets me in trouble but I'm aware of how to use it. I'm not saying it was a strategy to come off as irritable, but it was never my intention for that to be a long-term thing. But I think you're over-exaggerating it and undermining my game because of that.

You mentioned that I didn't try to fix anything during Touchy Subjects but that's not true. I did talk to a bunch of people about how I acted. Luke and I had a great talk after that. I had a great talk with the camera and it got me worked up. I did try to fix it with the people I knew I had wrongfully wronged and I tried to make it right. So don't say I didn't try. I did try, and tonight we'll see if I was as terrible as you thought.

Now moving on to the physical part of the game. You said it yourself; Augusto bombed the last three challenges. I always gave it my all. The only competition Augusto won was a luck competition I believe. I played a better physical game than he did by far. He may have gotten second in a lot of competitions but I was never far off. I was a big help pre-merge and post-merge I was great at challenges. I never gave up in a challenge. Had you had a larger lead in the FIC I was prepared to go hug a stranger late at night and get their autograph. I would have done anything I could to stay in the game I loved playing. I don't think Augusto cared if he won. The physical side is a lot shorter due just the fact that there's not much else to talk about there.

Being a big fan of the show I know what to expect in a game like this. Clashing personalities trying to get one another out, and it was chaotic. I was a huge target from the merge. The fact that I'm still here despite that target is a big deal. Augusto may not have been on everyone's minds, but it's a hell of a lot harder to make it to the end game by being a threat than it is to slide by. You may not have considered me as a threat to win this game. But I was definitely a threat getting people out of this game. And in turn, although you don't think it, I believe that makes me a definite candidate to win this game.

I was smarter than Augusto. I never gave myself false credit for other's work. I was more socially aware than Augusto was, not kinder but more aware. I was better in challenges than Augusto was. I tried my best to get my tribe out of bumps and I gave it my all to stay alive in this game. Augusto didn't. To me, that's why my game was better than Augusto and that's why I should get your vote.